School starting..

School starting..

BORING !!

School is starting !! OMG >.>"
How I hated waking up at 7am..
And rush to school..
Next year even worse.. SPM !! I am so not ready..
What can I DO?!?!
I hate school.. ><"
Wish me luck for SPM.
LoL

Holidays !!

Holiday started !

Don't know I should be happy or sad.
Holiday is fun coz I can stay at home or hang out everyday but then couldn't see my friends.
Especially someone I wanna see. xD
Hope I can call them out :D
Being busy with my life.
Couldn't update my blog too much.
Hehe.

Party ~ ~

Unexpected invite for a party @_@

I got an unexpected invite to a birthday party :D
I was thinking whether I should go or not.
I made my decision to go :D
It turn out to be not too bad even though not much of activities.
Mostly eating xD
BBQ babeh ~ xD
The food was nice ~! Like chicken, pork and stuff.
And now I am chatting with Ying Zhi.
Primary school friend :D
Very good friend, I am trying to get her to tell me her secret.
Hehe xD
Nothing much happened today.
Just that I feel unease because of the accident happened near my living place.
Someone died by car crashing.
Due to that incident, my parents don't let walk home anymore. @_@
This is gonna be troublesome. ><" Have to wait for car everyday.

Boring ~

Boredom kills !!

Now I know how boredom kill people.
I am so damn bored =_=
No one accompany me. Y-Y
I miss people but people don't miss me.
Sigh ~

Suddenly think back old time @_@

Miss my old friends and old time ~

Hmm ~ Suddenly think back about my primary school life @_@
Not much though since can't really remember much.
Kinda miss being a kid @_@
I mean a very innocent and young kid :D
History exam today.
Pretty bad @_@ Never study much about history ~ Hate it =_=

Add Math ~ Dead !

Add Math paper ~ Dead !

I just killed my Add Math paper.
So hard. Very very hard.
At least I did better than mid term, I guess that's the improvement :)

Lightning struck my computer ><"

OMG ! Lightning got my computer.

Stupid lightning got my computer.
My modem went down for like 4 days ! 4DAYS !!
Living without the internet is like doomsday ~!
At least now it is fixed.
Having my exams now. My BM and English died already.
Not enough time for the essays. Sigh ~
It suck.. I know RIGHT ! ><"
Add math and history is on the way. My R.I.P date.
Studying is kinda fun sometimes. It gets boring though ><"
Hope I can keep studying till my SPM over.

I think I got a bit more mature.

As the title said !
LoL, as the title said. Now I start studying.
This is because I am bored of the life I use to have.
Play play play play.
Now I start to study.
It's hard for me to chase back, 9 months of being idiotically stupid.
Not using any brain because no study at all.
Now have to finish up all the form 4 syllabus for the next 3 months.
><"
Really hard. What I can do? All my fault for not putting any effort for the past 9 months.

Be grateful for what you are having now.

Crazy night I never ever try before..

Yesterday night, a really really crazy night for me..
I slept at 11pm.. (Usually at 3 ~ 5 am)
Don't know why.. Just suddenly feel like sleeping..
I went to sleep as my instinct tell me to do so..
Right before I sleep.. I SMS to someone I miss a lot !
Hmmm, as I thought.. That person never reply me..
So then I was asleep waiting for the reply..
THEN ! Suddenly I wake up at 3 am and smiling..
Guess why?
I was dreaming about that person and all the nice memories..
Then I keep thinking about all the nice memories and sweet stuff..
I went back to sleep at around 3.30am..
THEN ! I woke up at 4.30am ><" and crying.. Guess why this time? I dream about how this person stop caring about me.. And I couldn't get back to sleep.. Now is like 7.40am and I decide to write something.. Just to get the feeling out of me..

~Forgetting someone you love is like remembering someone you never met~
This quote really hit me..
I think that's what happening to me..
I am trying to remembering someone I never met before..
How is that possible?
I miss you a lot !
That's all I will say about this..
I hope it end quickly..

Shhhhesssshhh ~ ~

Shhhessshh ~ Darn tired this few days.. Not sure why though..
Sleep very early ><" Wakes early..
I thought it is suppose to be a healthy way..
But I still feel tired ><"
Feel bored to update my blog coz no one reads it ;3

I am confuse @_@

Hmm..
I am kinda confuse now..
Dunno whether what I think is right or not.. @_@
Never mind.. LoL ~ As long as we are together :D
No matter what relation.. Still ok with me :D
This few days !! Damn fun !! Went to zoo :)
Went to a party (Cheah birthday)
Nice party.. Thanks Cheah for inviting :D
Sleepover at my Ah Di house.. He came over for a night also :D
Very nice to have him as my Ah Di o.. :D

Nice feeling !!

Dunno why I feel quite nice after talking to my sister in Australia..
And her friend.. Feel so relieved.. Still ~ I am having problem with that person..
I smsed.. Reply.. But not like last time.. With kisses and stuff :P
But then don't get me wrong.. Not those kind.. Another kind larhx..
Just that I feel there is gap between us lorhx..
Maybe I really did something very wrong? Sigh ~ If so..
I would like to apologise sincerely here.. Sorry..
My life is getting better :D :D
Hehe :P
One more worry ~ $$ haha :P
Money ~_~
I need to start working on something.. To get enough money for my entertainment :P
Also.. don't forget to study a bit :P
To get good results..(reminder for myself, PS: don't have to read it)
Friends.. Sigh ~ My friends in my class now.. All so damn NAIVE and IMMATURE..
Can't say that I am very mature.. But I am sure they are worse lorh.. LoL :P :P
They might see this and said that I am the immature one.. And angry and stuff larhx..
You guys should ask people who are older than you guys dude ~
Wei Wern ~ You are a great friend :D
I regret by knowing you so late.. Haha :P
And also.. Yan Wei and Hui Jiun.. You guys might be a bit abnormal !! xD xD
In a good way.. But you guys rockx man :D
Ivan and Shaun.. Best friend as always :D
Today ~ I went and see Olympic game.. Malaysia play with China.. FINAL !! badminton..
Sadly.. Malaysia represent Lee Chong Wei lost.. But then.. I am happy he gets Silver Medal..
Better than nothing huh? :P
Not in Beijing larhx.. Just went out with friends :P
Oh ya.. Ivan ~ your cheese cake !! DAMN BLOODY NICE !!
Nothing much happen nowadays.. That person still make me feel a bit uncomfortable.. Treat me so cold o.. T_T
That's all for my nice feeling ! :P

Had fun this few days..

Not bad this few days.. Friday is the worse day for me..
Sigh ~ I made someone angry.. I dunno why it(special case) angry also..
I hope that it will forgive me.. And be good like last time ~
I really am sorry.. Whatever I did.. I had a sleepover in Ivan house :D
It's fun.. But then.. It still duwan to reply my message..
I hope we can be okay.. T_T
Study.. Problematic for me !! Never had the intention in studying o..
Still the same problem.. Money and study.. LoL ~
Learnt a lot of stuff ady though.. Like playing archery..
And stuff larhx.. A lot of general knowledge also..

Damn Streamyx !!

This suck =.=''
My line keep disconnecting >.<"
I am not sure whether what happened..
But 99.99% is from Streamyx !
All they do is take money =.=''
Dunno how to work.. We paid so much.. Be more hardworking.. ASS!!
Really hate this.. !!

My internet ~ HAVING PROBLEM !!

ARGH !! My stupid internet again !! Another problem.. This time I dunno how to fix it !!
OMG !! I am using a normal modem which Streamyx give out.. ADSL Modem 2/2+ DB102
I still can go online.. But then it disconnect itself once in awhile.. Just a short dc ~
There is 4 light on the modem.. Power is always on and PC too..
Then the link is the problem.. It should be on just like that.. But then sometimes.. It went blinking..
What the hell is the problem? If anyone knows about this.. Please tell me :D
Appreciate it :D
Dunno what happened.. I feel like getting worse.. I mean my relation with friends.. And also.. I feel like I am getting stupid.. Maybe I mix with wrong group of friends?

Happy :D

Very happy :P
I actually got invited to Genting :P
Yay ! hehe..
Still having trouble with myself.. Concentrating to study.. I feel like.. Study is not important..
But I know it is.. Just that.. I duwan to do it.. =.=''
Why is that? Sigh ~ ~

OMG OMG OMG

OMG !! Damn it !! I wanted to watch the MTV Asia award !! God damn it !!
Argh ~ ~ !!
I seriously need $$ now !!
Need a lot !! Around 300 bucks.. OMG !! Where the HELL am I gonna get it?

Malacca trip was fun :D

Yesterday I went for a one-day trip at Malacca :D
It was damn fun ! :P
Few part of the trip I can't forget about it at all :D
Not gonna tell it out..
Really fun !! Dunno how to tell :P
Hope I will have another trip again.. Hehe :P
I didn't really expect it will be this much fun ! :D

Getting better in my life :D

I am getting better.. I mean I am happier nowadays.. But then.. Still a lot stuff to work on.. 1st is $$.. I am broke ==;;
Used too much >.<" Second is some of my subjects (study).. I totally lost interest on it.. Trying to get back the interest :P

Going to Malacca trip tomorrow :)
Hope I will enjoy it.. :D
Today.. Ivan is still the same again ==;;
Being a very very siao kia (crazy people)
Our school teacher's !!
They have damn a lot of PREJUDICE against our basketball club..
Seriously ! Won't they every get tired..?
Something happens.. then they will like 'Pasti orang Cina di Kelab Bola Keranjang yang buat !'
If I am someone from PIBG ! I am so gonna do something about this..
Btw, they hates Chinese too ==;;
Damn RACIST !!
This is the current of THE GREAT MALAYSIA who said all races/religions are the same..
This Kin Hoe.. Never apologize when he did wrong stuff.. My classmate.. Everyone is the same..
So damn BULL HEAD ! (Unreasonable)
Never mind about that.. Will just see what's the effect on having that attitude..

Something about me ~

I hate :
My School
My House
SOME of my friends
ALMOST all the teachers
ALL the idiots like people in form 2 (They like to pick up fights and then ask someone to protect them)
Study subjects.. Example : Chemistry, Account, and Moral
Being alone
Backstabber
Limelight freaks (I think I am one.. rofl :P)
Homework

I love :
(Secret) :P
My computer :D
MOST of my friends
SOME teacher
Eating
Sleeping
Hanging out with friends
Sports (Mostly basketball)

Trying to be better me.. ~

Trying hard to be better..
Maybe not studying.. In life :D
More discipline.. More efficient..
Just trying to work out all my stuff..
My phone.. Gone ==;;
Don't care about that.. I find 'something' better..
Not telling out :P
School is boring.. I am not trying to say anything bad.. Maybe it is just me..
This school ==;; Students are not bad..
Teacher.. We have to teach them back ! rofl !
Funny right?
I am concealing a lot of secrets..
For myself :P
No one is gonna make me divulge it ! :P
Our school just had a singing competition recently :P
My friend won !! Congratulation ! If you read my earlier posts..
You should have know who is him.. He is Wei Wern !!
He won third for solo ! Second for duet !
Big hand of applaud !!
:P
I think I might enter next year :P
If I have the guts :P
Hope I can change myself.. Studying IS important !
Being a better me IS THE MOST important !

Getting worse @_@

My family matter.. I mean my parent are getting worse.. Everyday quarrel !
EVERY SINGLE DAY !! Last two days.. Yesterday.. Even now ! Means today they are quarreling..
What is wrong with them..? Is it because of money or what?
Seriously hate it when they quarrel.. Not to say I am scared or what..
Just make me feel very uncomfortable..
Won't be scared for sure because I am used to it..

*New words to remember*
Deceased = Corpse
Divulge = Reveal Information
Detrimental = Harming
Perceive = Recognize
Distinguish = To differentiate

Damn !

When or what situation only will make my family learn..?
This family seriously make me fed up ! My sis ady complain a lot of stuff..
Still.. They drink outside.. They gave a lot of pretext ==;;
Business must have social de..
Social untill drunk? What kind of business is that? Drink to win?
Making your health bad to win? ==;;
Come on ! This kind of excuses can me use when I am 3 or 4..
I am now FORM 4 !! 16 !!
I seriously hope everything will be better >.>"
I am really glad that I have both my sister..
My brother.. Borrowed money from me.. ==;; He is working.. I am studying.. And sweet talk..
He said he sell his phone RM 150 to me.. I gave him RM 110 now..
And now? The phone? DREAM ON !!
Maybe I am too naive ==;; To believe that..
Ass ! I need to work harder !
My dream is to be a successful person.. I duwan to let people to look down at me..
Not because of my family.. But for me and my sister who worked so hard !

Yay ! Getting a new phone :P

YES ! Getting a new phone ! Finally something cheer me up ! :P
Hope this won't go wrong.. :D

I hate my house..

I heard people said before.. Home sweet home..?
That is sooooooooooooooooooooooo not true !
Ass home I have..
I worked really hard for to be a better me..
What I think is.. Study is not everything I have..
I am now learning to be more responsible and work harder..
I done a lot of stuff in school..
And a helped a lot teacher to host a lot of stuff..
And it make me a better person in working..
When I go home.. My parent don't even know what I did..
And they keep scolding and nagging..
I seriously can't endure it.. !! Can I get out of my house?!?
They said they want to find my teacher who asked me go to school everyday..
If they do that.. I can't think of how my reputation will be..
They are such an inconsiderate people.. Inhuman ==;;
Maybe a bit harsh.. But come on ! I like sports..
I do study.. My result wasn't that good in form 4 doesn't mean it is the end of the world right?
Seriously.. I need someone to tell them.. Stop being such inconsiderate person..
See what I did in school.. PLEASE !!
GOD DAMN IT !!

New hope :D

I had found a New Hope !! :D
I hope this will last forever.. Or just long enough..
*thumb down* for Hancock..
I thought it is a nice show.. They didn't elaborate the show detail..
Where they come from and stuff..
But I like the jokes and the effect.. :P
Nothing much happened in our school.. I just hope it will be better :D
In all the way :D

Thanks :D

Thanks Hui Jiun for teaching English :D
And being a hole-on-the-nose English freak with me :P
DESPISE !! Do not despise people even people is different from you :D
Haizz.. The basketball team in my school.. A bit useless ==;;
Play play play.. Where is the discipline that I need..
Now I know how my coach feel last time.. ==;;

Feeling better..

My friends actually treat me good.. Some ~
Ivan, Shaun and Yian Khye.. You guys are great ~ :D
Jun Git.. I hope you won't misunderstand about me.. Anyway ~ I hope we can be friend again.. Good friend..
Or maybe brother :D
Jun Git.. I regret losing you as a brother.. Can't help it :D
Just hope to be better.. Hehe :D
A lot to do now.. The Olympic competition is coming.. I try and not to do so much @_@
Anyway ~ Our school team.. Under 14.. Kinda hopeless ==;;
I will do whatever I can to be good at everything..
Just because of my future and you ~
:D
Hope everything will be getting better and better :D

Stress ~ !!!!

...........................................
Speechless.. I really don't get it.. Is everything bad will strike at you at the same time..?
My dad is nagging me.. RIGHT NOW !!
Study study study study !!
I am in charge of a basketball competition.. Not to say in charge.. Just a part of worker.. Since a lot of people are still 'LIKE' my boss.. They really are the 'BOSS'.. Don't have to work.. and teacher keep asking me this and that.. What the hell am I suppose to answer? The 'BOSS' are holding everything.. Even though that's what I did.. I can't memorize every single thing right? =.=''
Probably you guys will ask.. Just give up doing those thing.. I do all this thing is not because of 'THOSE BOSS'.. I am doing this for Pn.Te and all the junior.. I am happy because there is 10 teams(under-15) took part.. This means there are a lot of people are interested.. I am pushing myself to the limit.. I hope I can break this limit.. Not my soul.. I really hate it ! I know there will be problem if one of the team join in.. Which I thought they won't be in.. Now they are here.. Tomorrow is the match.. We will see what's the problem.. Either fight or complain.. I really hate them ! They never consider other people.. I love 4A class.. Ivan and Shaun.. Miss you guys.. You guys are my best pal.. Hope it can be forever.. Yian Khye.. New student in our school.. Not a bad friend.. Funny but a bit stu..... ROFL ~
I start to hate my family and my house.. My dad keep nagging.. Why so late come back? BLAH BLAH BLAH ! He don't even know how hard is school life.. He thinks study is easy because both of my sis is good at it.. I don't like to study some subjects.. Why must I get all GOOD result? I get A for both English test.. He never even say good job or something..? Just because I get bad results at certain subjects doesn't mean I don't put effort on studying.. This make me hate studying.. Must I be the best of everything? Do you guys know how hard that is? My parent ask me to be more hardworking.. I am not light up.. I have no motivation.. I want to go to Australia.. I am not sure why.. This couldn't be my motivation.. If I really can't break this limit.. I might as well give up..................
My friends changed a lot.. I feel that.. I shouldn't be in this class.. I should stay in A class.. I really regretted..

*resurrect the blog*

AHahaha !! As you see the title.. I resurrect my blog ^^ I think I leave my blog dead for 3 months? Around there I guess.. I am back for one reason.. Feels like it !! rofl !
Okaii.. I know that's cold..
Anyway ! Hui Jiun.. !! You freak with-a hole-on the nose.. Don't call me English freak ! I am not.. rofl !! Nah.. Maybe I am :P
Hmm.. Nothing much happened.. I feel that I am getting better in my life.. But not my study :P
I mean I made more friends.. Feel more realistic now.. I guess growing is not a bad thing.. But getting lazy at study.. HELP !! How can I be hardworking again? =.=''
I just love English.. I want to improve more ! Anyway, BM sucks !! Hate it ! Let's stop talking about study ^o^
All my friends are cool ~ No problem in friendship.. No relationship =.=''
Wei Wern ! Good luck in your competition !! My school is having a singing competition for Chinese Society Club :P Good luck to all competitor ! ^o^
Our Basketball Club is having a 5 on 5 comepetition too ^o^
I put a lot of works in it.. I went and bought stuff with teacher and Kin Hoe, make the form and stuff.. Prepare lots of stuff.. Hope it will be a total success.. Hope everyone will be sporting and don't complain about the refree or stuff.. It's not easy to host something though.. But I learnt a lot a lot of stuff from it.. Like being responsible ^^ Thanks to all the teacher that trust me.. Let me do this kind of stuff :D
I hope I won't let them down.. My study got worse.. I think I should study more.. But whenever I said I will.. End up.. Never even touch my books.. Anyhow.. My marks drop.. I feel nothing.. But why? I fail few subjects.. New subjects.. Add math and Chemistry.. I only have feeling towards my english.. I mean I am not satisfied with my marks.. The others.. I feel like.. 'Who cares?' =.='' Why? Anyone can tell me?
WHAT THE HELL? Why study again? =.=''
I am going a trip.. Um.. Malacca.. Hope it will be fun.. I hope to go to a better place :P
Like Genting Highlands.. Hope there is a chance.. Go with friends :)
Let's stop here.. hehe :P will update soon ^0^

Empty suddenly..

*Sigh* Starting of the blog ~ I already *sigh*.. Means this post is written when I am really really sad and confuse..
I really don't understand.. How people can use other people.. To accomplish their stuff.. This really SUCK ! A lot people seems to be treating you good.. But at the back.. I bet 9/10 people is backstabbing.. Once I think of that.. I ask myself.. I treat them not good enough? Or I am just a tool for them? I think this problems not only occur on me.. If anyone have any solution to solve this problems.. I am begging for advice.. Sometimes worse.. is that the person you liked.. Treat you the same way like what I say.. I am very very empty in my head and my heart.. What I should do...?
Should I just quit being friends with them? I thought I am quite a OKAY person.. Which can communicate with anyone.. But then now I lack of confidence even talking to someone I know a long long time.. I need to think a lot before talking.. I scared later just because one wrong word.. Another backstabber.. I am actually now quite confuse.. I really don't understand.. Why my friend don't understand me.. They knew me for 4 years.. Now I just being a fans of a kid and I like playing with kids.. They ask me.. Am I homosexual? Then I say ~ You all guess...? They think I am.. !! WTF?!? I am so disappointed.. Can't believe it.. Now more and more people saying I am homosexual.. Hurt me a lot.. Maybe I really will turn into one.. *Sigh*
God ! Tell me what to do...? If liking kids making you a homosexual.. Should I hate kids? And not go near to kid at all? I do love cute kids a lot though.. So what you all think? Tell me some advice if possible ~ Thank you ! I hope all people can be true.. Not faker.. God bless..

I am BACK !!!

Phew.. My house can online back ~ ~ FINALLY !!
Hehe ^^ But I have a bad bad bad news.. Sigh.. Jacky仔 he is gonna stop acting.. Sigh.. Because he want to concentrate in studying.. He sent me an email.. That's what he said.. I am sooo sad.. Can't see him anymore in TV.. Anyway ~ ~ Glad to be back to the world of online-ing xD